this so so so so so so so so sucks

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i’m still in shock. 

yesterday my bosses had to let me go. god damn economy. the mom i work for was laid of from her job at an investment firm that is doing a lot of lay offs. it was TOTALLY unexpected as she is high up there and recently got a promotion. this obviously has them in a financial bind and she is predicting she will not find a job any time soon and so my super stable job that allowed me tons of flexility and to bring my child to work is now done. just like that. 

i’ve known this family for 5  years and have worked for them for 3 of those. i was planning to work for them for quite some time since their kids are young and they predicted a child-care need for many years. of course, i can get ANY after school child care position, but, not one that will let me bring a kid along and definitely not one that pay me a FULL TIME wage for half time work. 

there are no words to describe our sadness. we are trying to wrap our brains around this cruel joke of being so close to our dream to be moms and then just as we are in the brink, we get knocked down. yesterday morning i was in heaven thinking about how close we are to having a child of our own and how lucky we are to have ideal jobs for childcare purposes and  then….. this. 

the family is helping me out with a months pay and a bonus which will get us through for a bit. i am already sending out a ton of resumes and trying to figure out what kind of schedule i could work. we are wondering beginning our family with a kindergarten age child who is already in school … there are many variables. 

but really we are just devastated beyond words. i cried so hard last night that i couldn’t open my eyes this morning. i’m applying cucumber cream, drinking my half decaf/half regular with milk, and then gonna try to get out of bed and face this day.

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